挥挥手

前几天搭火车一小时去 Gladstone 工作一天。

火车离开月台时看到很多送别的家属向车厢里的家属挥手道别。。 =）

到月台尽头时， 看到一个火车站员工微笑着向车厢内每个乘客挥别。。

刹那觉得好温馨， 在这陌生的月台至少有一个人和我道别了。 =） 有点感动tim ...

接下来一整天都是好心情！！

放工时，在铁路路途中又看见远处有一家人在向着整列火车挥手。。 画面好可爱，好亲切。。

总觉得这里的人好亲切。。 那时，我又微笑了，想向他们挥手。。 但心想他们应该看不到，就放弃了。。。

挥手，或许你不知道你一个小小的动作，其实会带给他人满满的温馨。。

pingu =)

手抖

自从开始接触超音波后，就发现我有手抖的困扰。

都已经快4年了。。。

每次看到双手颤抖都都会有莫名的不悦。

为什么你要抖？

紧张吗？害怕吗？肚子饿吗？寒冷吗？

都不是！（虽然有时寒冷和紧张会导致状况更严重）

我发现只要把双手举在胸前凌空伸直，双手就抖个不停，控制不了，看了都会怕。

前同事医生发现我的问题，帮我做了Thyroid验血，一切正常；就开了Propanolol 药方让我试一试看可以控制吗。没耐性的我并没有乖乖天天服食，所以都不知道到底是有效还是没效。上了Google明察暗访后，自己诊断是Essential Tremor， 原来有很多人也有这困扰。主要原因不明确，？遗传，？神经问题，等。

在日常生活，老实说真的是有些影响。

当需要做些细腻的动作时，就会很明显。

烹饪时，喝汤时，写报告时，递东西给别人时，拿着纸张时，

最讨厌是拍照时，每次到要连拍几张才可拍到一张满意，不朦胧的！

有时我还很庆幸我不是手术医师，护士，化验师，表演家，艺术家，秘书。。。

有时我还想幸好我不是学生我不必做化学试验，不必写大楷，不必画水彩画，不必打键盘。。

LOL

想想，我还几乐观的。。不得了。。

工作时，拿着扫描器在病人身上扫来扫去，暂时还没有什么问题。也许有些小颤抖。。希望病人不会以为是我紧张啦。。有时遇到一些肥病人时，需要用力按，也会按到无力而抖，真够力！

看来这工作并不会是我的终身饭碗。开始有点担心。。。怎么办？

室友们还喜欢在我煮东西或写字时常取笑我，“看那手，震到。。。”。

羞羞！

我也不想的啊！

Pingu手震震

Boy Or Girl?

Saw this blog this morning, 咖啡与我 wrote about antenatal ultrasound experience. =)
Ya, patients usually anxious to find out their babies' gender, BOY or GIRL ?

I have some funny experience to share too!

#1
A young couple asking to see baby's gender.
So, I scanned through that area but cant see very well cause baby's legs are tightly closed.
So, I told the parents, "your baby is too shy, not allow us to see the private part, we cant get to know the gender.. "
U know how the mummy replied?
She said, "Oh, maybe the baby is wearing undies now. OK, we'll wait next time when he/she doing laundry, we'll check again..."
The moment I heard this, I nearly LOL.... She's so funny, this is 1st time I hear such a joke !
I wanted to faint.. hhahhaha.....

#2
A couple, G6P4A1, wanna know the gender also.
Still the same, "The baby didn't wanna open the leg for us to see."
And I ask, "What do u have at home ?" , She said, "4 girls !"
Doink~... They must be expecting smtg different for this pregnancy...
So, I look closely again, hoping to show them smtg different. But, looks like a girl too this time, but since the legs are not opened wide enough, so I didnt show them, just told them we cant see today, it's a shy baby.... hahahha....

#3
Another mummy, G3P1A1, wanna find out the gender too...
So, this time we can see clearly there's a little penis hanging there... kekkeke....
Before I show her, I ask what's her previous child ? She said a boy, and she's hoping a girl.
So I show her, this time looks like a boy too....
She said, "Oh no, U serious? " I show her, let her see herself the balls and hotdog, not burger ... LOL... (sounds like a fast food restaurant huh? u want hot dog or hamburger?)
She ask, "Oh no, it's so obvious! can we chop it off ? can we?"
Doink~ again... I nearly LoL .... what a crazy patient....

Not all parents insist want to see the gender, some insist not to know, they wanna have a surprise during the delivery. Some, very indecisive, I got 1 couple thinking/considering (asking each other,, want or not, want or not? ) for more than 5 minutes b4 deciding for me to reveal the gender or not.. they wanted a surprise, but curious to know too... just cant decide... I really beh tahan ... wasting my time there...


In Obstetric scannings, the most important is to see the growth of the fetus, and look for any structural abnormalities, any early sign of complication of the pregnancy. Gender is always the secondary issue... Plus, we always remind the patient, even if we can see the gender, we never say it's 100% accurate we just say about 80-90%.... hahah.. just for legal issue. (In case they blame us one day for buying pink clothes for their boy baby or vv.) And, they normally understand..






BOY or GIRL ?


Pingu with funny patients

Addicted to ...

Recently I'm addicted to this Korean Series, Surgeon Bong Dal Hee... A medical series mimicking Grey's Anatomy. Learnt lot of medical terms in there. And enjoyed watching the spirit of Bong Dal Hee, a first year resident Dr who strives to become a surgeon despite her heart problem... Her determination, her passion in medicine, is so touching. A lot to learn from her. In this series, there are a lot of scenes that at nights, she keeps studying reference books to look for answers to all the problems she faced in day time.

"Let the lessons taught by our first patients be forever kept in our hearts"

"Patients are always our teachers"

Her first time is always difficult.

Difficult 1st love;

Difficult 1st patient;

Difficult 1st surgery.

But she never gave up, she kept learning and continue to strive forward!

I love her passion to her job.

Started to study bit by bit for my coming exam next year.

The more u study, the more u found out that u still got a lot to learn, to memorize.

Make me more nervous.

I should start to be MORE responsible to every of my patients,

I should start to fill up my brain with all the knowledge I should have as much as I can.

I should always conscious of what I am doing, and what I want.

I should build up my confidence in everything!

I should continue to strive forward no matter how depressing the situation is.

"Never disappointed on urself, take it as learning curve and move forward"

"You're ignorant but you're not a coward! Get a hold of urself, You can do it! Keep it in mind!" one of the supervisor surgeon shout at her when she was operating on a patient's lung.

See, a lot to learn from this series.. good one !

Fear gives way to hope

Pingu enlightened ?

(Taking deep breath in ... heart rate shooting up... should start working hard for all the "I SHOULD" listed above)

再多三个月

再多三个月！
三个月后的这个时候，我就在家里，我的家乡与家人，朋友共聚，吃着想念了好久好久的美食。
YEAH ！！

好想念安顺猪肠粉！
点心，肉骨茶，还有妈妈的温暖牌!

突然，好想家。。。
I wanna go home !

好想做完这几年合约，储蓄够一年的生活费就回家，不做工一年。。。
在家过自己想过的生活，无忧无虑的生活，与世无争的生活。 =）
可以吗？ =）


Pingu 's thinking...

Sharing

A poem for sisters,



If sisters were flowers, I'd still pick you.
I'd let the sun shine so you'd never be blue.
I'd show the world how beautifully you grew,
with bright bold colors and strength through and through.


Found this from somewhere...
Meaningful! dedicate it to my 2 sisters and my dear girlfriends.
I'm glad you are my sisters, and I'm always proud of you. =)

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX



Another quote I got when watching a weird Korean movie recently,

"It's hard to tell the world we live in is a reality or a dream"

Ya, sometimes I really think of it ... Is it real or just a dream ?
A long long dream, well organised, like a movie...
Could it be when I wake up from this dream,
I'm actually an old lady dying on bed at 70's ?
or I'm actually a young girl who has been coma on bed for so long?
or ............. I dun really exist ?
Or, I'm just crazy thinking too much ... let my mind fly so far, so lost...
COME BACK !! BACK to REALITY... LOL



Watever it is ... Live your life to the fullest...
"Live well... Love much... Laugh often..."


Life is a journey, it's all up to u to direct your own life...



Pingu is wondering

Chalazion Attack !!

Again, a problem that keep annoying me almost once a year since 12 years old...

Chalazion! Yes, itis attacking me again!

It's not a normal sty that develope at your eyelid externally..

But, internally! and will become very chronic, stay there for few weeks, keep growing, giving u swollen, sore, red eyelid,

From internet sources:

A chalazion (stye) is a small lump in the eyelid caused by obstruction of an oil producing or meibomian gland. Chalazia may occur in the upper or lower lids, causing redness, swelling and soreness in some cases.
Signs and Symptoms
a)Raised, swollen bump on the upper or lower eye lid
b)Often red
c)May be tender and sore

Haiz...

It's so sore...

All because of my Sambal fried rice last week. JM made a bottle of Msian Sambal and put in fridge, so I took 2 spoons to add in my fried rice.. It was really spicy and yummy... then the next day, problem started ! Started with sore eyelid, and I knew it must be chalazion coming to visit me again ! After few years of "quiet" period... Again, it "check in" at same eye, same spot, just didnt tell me the "check out" day yet..

It's been a week already, everyday asked by colleagues how's your eye today ? Haiz... still enlarging... Hahah, hopefully didnt scared away my patients, (ya, oltho my eyelid like this, my vision is still OK, dun worry).. Yesterday my colleagues couldn't tahan anymore, grabbed me and wanna scan my eye to see wat is in there... and this is the image she got.. full of abcess, pus, measured 17mm x 8mm.

still waiting for it to turn yellow so I can squeeze out the pus...

Pingu the Stygirl